kindness

Oops. No devotional book today. I drove right past Dove Christian Supplies but ummm...I was in the wrong lane and there was a lot of traffic. Does that sound plausible? :) Another day!

Since January I have lost *drum roll* 20 pounds. Hallelujah (in English and whatever other languages you can think of!)! :) For the first 8 or 9 weeks I "worked with" a trainer. Meaning, he told me what to eat and how much to exercise and I paid him money to ignore what he said. :/ I did like having his voice in my head reminding me to exercise, but a couple of weeks ago when I told him about being sick (for 2 weeks) and not doing a lot of exercise or eating right as a result, he got a little snotty and all I could hear then was my dad's voice. And since my dad was an abusive shit, it wasn't well-received or appreciated. (I know, the trainer didn't know that, nor did I expect him to be enlightened) Needless to say, we are on a "break" and I have done quite well without him. :) Except for the consistent exercise. Here are my excuses :D 1-It's been windy. I don't do walking in Lethbridge Wind. 2-I've been busy. 2 jobs, need I say more? :) I do have a gym membership, I just haven't made the effort to go lately.

Anyway. I'm working on kindness to myself as I said before and not looking on everything I do in terms of losing weight as "torture." More like changing my perspective to embrace honouring the body God has given me. Health is an important issue for me and I STILL believe that God will heal my kidneys and I will have no more need of dialysis. Is that crazy? :) Ha. No, I guess that's faith! :) It's weird, but I really do believe it. But I also have this deep-rooted feeling that there has to be more health-wise stuff going on in my life--emotional, mental, spiritual, and physical. You know?

"news"

I am trying to give up junk food.

Why? Well...it's processed, has high calories, and of no nutritional value. And in it's own way is an unhealthy addiction. Of course when I was out walking this morning I was thinking "oooooo I should stop at KFC on my way home. KFC is chicken. Chicken is good. And their fries & gravy....." Yeah, ain't it funny how the brain works?!!? Argh! So I didn't go. I avoided driving past any fast food restaurants and stopped in at Sobey's to buy salad stuff, bell peppers, etc. It's not easy, you know. There's so much "easy" food out there and I am not really a fan of cooking...so hunkering down with a bag of sunflower seeds and a book is more my nutritional speed. :/ But I have to change that, I really really do!!

In other news..ha! what other news?!? I changed my apartment around and gave it a pretty good cleaning. I lost the cap to my olive oil bottle under the stove (bugger!). I am applying left right and centre for jobs at the university and college because, frankly, those are the two places I'd like to work. I got a wiifit and am trying to use it daily (I quite like the ski jump and the hula hoop!). The date that I thought might turn into something more didn't...or hasn't. BOO! :)

OK, I think that's enough in the way of "news" :)

writing to write.

I've been waiting for my grades to be posted for the past week and they've been there! For how long I don't know, but there's a notification that pops up saying new grades have been posted. It didn't notify me, so I didn't think of checking inside the class page on WebCT. AAAAHHHH. Two finals still haven't been posted and I haven't gotten a mark back for the paper I handed in Monday. I hope that prof is distracted because I SOOOOOO did it wrong! It's a decent research paper, but I followed the outline in the textbook as opposed to the outline in the class handout. Oops. I knew I should have checked that first! Oh well...

I am so beyond caring. I rocked four of my five classes this semester, and those were actually the ones I was interested in. Surprising how that works eh?

I applied to the college today (deadline is tomorrow). I'm registering for Communication Arts--the first year is all the same, regardless of whether you're on track for broadcasting, print, or PR. I was originally thinking of broadcasting and that's been the "jump up and smack me" sign, but I'm also thinking I'd REALLY like to refine my writing--which would be why I'm blogging like a madwoman. I'm trying to get in at LEAST 30 minutes of writing a day.

I'm still working on the whole "discipline" resolution I made a year ago New Year's. Can you say "work in progress"?? :) I'm doing far better with that though. Being crazy busy definitely helps with time management and prioritizing the things I think are important. Like walking or going to the gym. Like reading for pleasure. :) Like writing. Like not eating sunflower seeds! That was a hard one today because I got my monthly blood work done and usually after getting bloodwork done I buy a bag of spitz as a treat--high in phosphorus, sucks calcium from your bones, nasty nasty (like all dark colas, except rootbeer)--but I'm really trying to watch what I eat and eat better. So I made a cheese quesadilla instead (that was my treat, high dairy is also a no-no). Ohhhhh but I love cheese! I actually have a recipe for potatoes that uses gruyere and I REALLY want to make that tonight after work!

Ok, I could write for ages, so I should probably shut for now. :) I have a couple of videos I'll add when I'm not at work and actually have YouTube access.

housekeeping

Getting up early and heading to the lake for a walk hit new earlies this morning thanks to the husband-wife pigeon team trying to exercise their conjugal relations outside my window at 6am. Seriously. Is that not TOO EARLY for that sort of business? There was much flapping of wings and I think the wife really was telling him to piss off. If she wasn't, I did with the spray of a bottle full of vinegar-water. That'll put a kink in the mood, I'm sure! :)

So at 7am I was tootling my way around the lake (it's 3km around, just so y'all don't think I'm doing marathons early in the morning). It was a little on the brisk side, but the sun was shining!! Nary a cloud in sight, thank the good Lord! There were a few other early morning souls out there walking dogs, running, being all sorts of healthy.

Which is a GREAT segue into my next topic. Man, I'm good! *toot toot*

Turned the TV on when I got home and Joyce Meyer's Everyday Living was on. I like Joyce Meyer's. She's more pentecostal than I will ever be, but she's got a zest for living and a zest for God that is refreshing. Plus, she's a great speaker. She was speaking today on the health of our bodies.

Her question was this: "If God lives in you, how are you taking care of it (your body)?" I love this question because it's so true. Think about the food we eat, the compromises we make in nutrition or exercise. I know I do. This morning for example. Ok, so I went for a walk and I'm meeting up with Lesley later this morning to go again, but when I got home, I didn't feel like taking the pot I needed out of the dishwasher so I could boil an egg. Ummm. Yeah, ridonkulous. I do have an egg boiling NOW, but at first I was just going to forego it because I couldn't be bothered.

Here's the thing: I NEED the protein. I don't like eggs if they're not boiled (I can also tolerate poached, but that's more of a restaurant thing).

Anyway. How often does that happen? Probably quite often.
And here's something else that kind of scared me. I've been watching Biggest Loser this season and they showed before-and-after MRI results from one of the contestants(Ron) and the FAT packed around his heart and organs before he lost over 100 pounds was SCARY. I've never thought about that before. Why we are not educated in regards to this stuff, I don't know. We should be.

I want to lose 20-30 pounds over the next few months 1-because I need to, 2-because I want to be healthier, and 3-because my body is a temple of the living God and I need to treat it better. I need to do some housekeeping!